Speaking of “thinking out loud,” have you read Michael Singhers’ book, “Untethered Soul?” I just started it for the second time. I actually think this is the first and only time I’ve ever voluntarily read a book twice. I read it last fall around this time, and just kind of picked it up again on impulse a couple of weeks ago. The week before starting school/ending summer, I was beginning to feel really anxious and could sense myself distancing myself from… myself. Wooowww bad english. What I mean is, I was feeling very ungrounded and like I wasn’t aware of what I was actually thinking or feeling. I needed some help to get back to myself again. Singer’s teachings opened me up to a sense of inner awareness and really helped me alleviate my anxiety. I may speak more about what this book has taught me in a later post, but in short, he basically talks about “that voice in our heads.” That one that is constantly speaking to itself. That was that is on constant “play mode” whether we are alone on the couch or washing the dishes or on the bus or even out with friends. He talks about simply being aware of this voice, and realizing that we are not these thoughts… we are the one who simply notices and watches these thoughts. It is a very liberating revelation. I highly recommend the book to anyone interested in self-study or who struggle with anxiety.
Now, as for those thoughts that have been swimming around in MY head…
I’ve had a few this week. And they’re kinda making me smile.
As I continue to take step after step into a life of recovery, I am continually astounded by the bliss that such seemingly “normal” things bring. Those moments that maybe years ago, you wouldn’t have thought twice about. Those so called “everyday” or “normal” things that now just feel so unbelievably liberating and make you so freakin’ proud and thankful for now being able to experience. It really is the little things. Thanks, Amanda, for letting me think out loud!
2. Not giving a sh*t that your boyfriend uses allll the butttterrrrrrrr.
…And actually asking him to make you eggs because of this very reason. And because you feel lazy.
3. Knowing that your morning walk or yoga class is exercise and is moving your body.
4, Actually thinking, “buuuuut… it tastes better with more oil!”
5. PUMPKIN MUFFINS in the AFTERNOON. With COFFEE. In the SUN.
6. Bringing your french press to the coffee table because you actually do NOT want to move in the morning. At all.
7. Sitting all day in class, but not giving a damn about your lack of calorie-burn because you love what you are learning. And that’s all that matters.
8. Carving out time on Sundays to make a new batch of cookies because having a stash in your fridge is a non-negotiable. And way more important than laundry.
9. Spending so much less time when baking because you aren’t spending hours choosing the most “perfect” recipe or figuring out how to change it to fit in with all your rules. And being okay when you realize you put in “too much” peanut butter. *Oops not sorry.*
10. Using up what you have in your freezer.
11. Getting that latte and cookie not because you just worked out but because it feels like fall outside and all you want to do is eat pumpkin and drink coffee and wear boots and scarfs and play in the leaves. And drink coffee.
12. Choosing the less stressful option.
What little thing is making you smile!?
I am 200% not a relationship expert. Let’s get that out right now…