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Digesting Emotions. What I Learned From BodyTalk.

As I mentioned on Monday, last week I attended a BodyTalk session. BodyTalk is basically impossible to explain and rather should just be experienced first hand – but in short, it works to balance out what the body may be currently holding onto or suppressing, and which – as a repercussion – is affecting our mental state. The body somehow sends messages, guiding the practitioner to areas where there is an imbalance, or where extra attention is needed. Its hippy dippy and you just need to choose to believe in it, if you want to believe it. 

I’ve mentioned before my frequent discomfort in my stomach, solar plexus and chest. As I believe strongly in the mind-body connection,  I wanted some help loosening the anxiety I have been unable to shake over the past few weeks, and hopefully as a result, loosen the tightness I’ve been feeling in these areas.

 

digesting emotions

 

One thing that was brought to my attention during my session was the notion of “digestion.” As the practioner spoke, she made it clear that she was not alluding to digestion as it pertains to food. Rather, she was talking about our ability to digest certain emotions. Like people with celiac disease or IBS, for example, some bodies have difficulty digesting certain nutrients or food groups. As a result, they literally get lodged inside and create a whole lot of discomfort, and even illness. 

So… maybe emotions can be the same way. 

 

digesting emotions

“Think about an unsettled stomach as the result of all the emotions your body is unable to digest or accept within. Anger and resentment can cause inflammation and pain in the body due to an inflexible way of being or holding on to something rather than to forgive and let go.” Source.

 

Sometimes if a certain emotion gets provoked, it comes in, but then literally gets stuck. Whether consciously or not, our body holds onto it and does not let it pass through. Maybe the mind says it is too hard to feel. Maybe it is connected to a difficult memory or traumatic experience and therefore the mind has placed “forbidden!!” warning signs all over our insides, putting an immediate halt on its journey. After time, this emotion that we are unable to, or not allowed to, release creates a big ol’ backup and a whole lot of distress. 

At my session, my practitioner kept repeating the words, “disappointment,” and “resentment.”

She sensed a “difficulty digesting disappointment.”

She sensed a “holding onto resentment.”

Interestingly enough, she sensed a direct connection between these feelings and my career (yet she had no idea what my career was).  

She asked if there was anyone I worked with that I was having “trouble being around.” 

HA. 

Welllll.

If you’ve been reading lately, you mayyyyyyy know that I’ve been turning myself into quite the ball of stress due to precisely this… my career. And the people involved in it. 

 

digesting emotions

 

Of course I feel disappointment. I’m disappointed that I didn’t become the star that I, and everyone else, expected I would be. I’m disappointed that I’m not yet where I thought I would be in life. I’m disappointed I got an eating disorder and took time away and am years behind most people my age. I’m disappointed that I’m not getting the outcomes I thought I would be as I come to graduation. 

Of course I feel resentment. I am working along side a crew of actors that are loud, extroverted, opinionated… everything I am not. And yet I see them getting the attention. The attention I want. I feel resentful because I have a distaste for this type of energy and yet at the same time I’m jealous that I am not more like them. Every day I’m seeing them get auditions and jobs that I did not get and I often feel like I was just as, if not, more deserving. Blegh. How gross a thought is that.

 

digesting emotions

 

Point is, as obvious as these feelings seem, I have never really admitted to them before. In all my awareness and self learning I have done over the last how many years,  I have not once used the words “disappointed” and “resentment.” 

As soon as these words were out… and this is going to sound crazy… its like I could literally feel something flushing through me.

Of course I feel these things. 

And you know what, its okay. It makes sense. 

But because I’ve been…

a) too scared to feel disappointment because it’s an extremely hard feeling to feel and I don’t want to feel that heavy sadness 

and

b) have felt too guilty admitting to feeling resentment because feeling such a thing makes me a “bad” and “mean” person

….these feelings just get lodged inside me. They grow and bundle and make me an anxious, pent up, tense mess. Like a piece of gluten to someone with celiac disease. 

 

digesting emotions

 

I left my session not really having any idea if it “did” anything. There wasn’t any sort of “prescription,” or “closure” and not even an explanation of what I “should be feeling.” But what I do know is that when I got back on the streetcar a few minutes later… I started to feel lighter than I had in weeks. I even started to feel happy. 

Since my appointment, it’s not like I havn’t felt disappointment or rejection. In fact, I’ve felt some very difficult emotions since. Perhaps something opened up in me that is now letting these hard feelings through. I don’t know. That’s up for personal belief. But just having someone bring these words to my attention was enough to make me aware that they live in me, that I can be compassionate towards myself for feeling them, and that I can consciously turn on my “digestion enzymes” so that they can break down, move through, and let me carry on with my life. It’s still bloody hard. But its starting to feel a bit less heavy. 

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Linking up with Amanda for Thinking Out Loud. 

Tell me,

Do you think there are any feelings or memories that you have trouble digesting? 

 

 

 

26 COMMENTS

  1. Casey the College Celiac | 5th Apr 17

    What an interesting appointment and a great change in perspective. I know I have a hard time digesting rejection and imperfection. But I’m working on it. One step at a time 🙂
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    • Cora | 8th Apr 17

      Working on it is the biggest step you can take. I’m learning rejection is really hard for me too. I think it lives somewhere different than disappointment and resentment though. Somewhere with a lot more grief in it

  2. Danielle | 6th Apr 17

    Wow. Just wow. What a phenomenal experience!! I’m thrilled that you did this and are able to eloquently share. My mom did a body talk session years ago right around the time her mom, my grandmama, passed away. She learned she had some pretty intense feelings blocking her. I remember her feeling better after and went back a few more times. I’m all about alternative therapies. Heck I’m all about getting help. From anywhere and everyone in every way. I fully believe that sharing our troubles in different situations can shed new light.
    I’m still working in this. I know I’ve got deep fears of failure and rejection and abandonment. I tend to pull away rather than up close as a self protection. I’d love to get through this as well. Maybe I’ll find a body talk practice later on 🙂

    • Cora | 8th Apr 17

      All about getting help from anywhere or anyone……. yes. I wish more people had this mentality. Sometimes I believe things can be mind over matter and more about belief than anything, but hey, if THAT in of itself helps you feel better… than all to it!
      Fear, rejection and abandonment are terrifying emotions. They are so freaking hard. They are ones we are evolutionarily trained to run from, so it is natural to pull away. That’s why I think it is so important to have some help get through them.

  3. jade | 6th Apr 17

    As I stared at the Emotional Energy diagram I had a huge ‘light bulb’ moment. In my 20’s I was in an unhappy marriage and had constant pain in my shoulders, throat and chest and felt ALL of the emotions described in those areas. After I was divorced all of the pain disappeared completely. Very insightful post, thank you!

    • Cora | 8th Apr 17

      Wow. That is fascinating, Jade. Thank you!!!

  4. Susie @ Suzlyfe | 6th Apr 17

    Really super interesting. I can see a lot of correlations in discomfort zones and emotions. I’m going to have to think on this. I’d never heard of Body Talk before!
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    • Cora | 8th Apr 17

      Its quite an experience. I’d recommend looking into it…

  5. Heather @ Polyglot Jot | 6th Apr 17

    I think the zones mentioned makes a lot of sense–this is really interesting! I can relate to not being where you thought you’d be and it’s so hard to digest. I’m currently working on what it means for me to keep moving forward even when things aren’t exactly how I planned or necessarily wanted!
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    • Cora | 6th Apr 17

      To keep moving forward. Wow. That somehow is a hard prospect to digest, in of itself. I think because it is the one that takes the most courage and bravery. But we have to. We can all be there to keep pushing each other and reminding each other “just keep moving forward…”

  6. Sarah @ Bucket List Tummy | 6th Apr 17

    Can you believe I’ve never heard of this? I’m so fascinated by it though and your recount of your experience. I mean, I think it makes a lot of sense because I know yoga/meditation and other guided movements can bring out emotions. I think we all have trouble digesting disappointment – it’s one of those feelings where you just don’t feel up to par with your expectations. But I think it can teach us a lot too.
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    • Cora | 8th Apr 17

      I don’t think many people have heard of it, actually. What’s so cool about it is you really do no actual talking…it all comes out through touch. Yes, I think disappointment is in the family of emotions that we are just evolutionary trained to protect ourselves against. Along with fear, rejection and abandonment.

  7. Jamie@TheMomGene | 6th Apr 17

    This is fascinating. I think my hardest emotion to digest is disappointment…as in, letting others down somehow so that they are disappointed in me. It’s exhausting to live like that, but I also don’t want to build armor that keeps me from feeling. Balance. Sigh. I like the Body Talk idea because it lets you pinpoint emotions and make connections. When we get stuck in our heads we lose touch with the rest.

    • Cora | 8th Apr 17

      Ah…. and that is the mother in you. Never wanting to disappoint others.
      And yes THIS is my next question and what I’m currently trying to figure out. How we can have a balance between feeling our feelings, but not to such a degree that we are exhausted and unprotected? I don’t want to be numb, but I can’t feel the hard feelings so deeply all the time.

  8. Kat | 6th Apr 17

    Wow girl, thank you so much for sharing this experience with us! And thank you so much for putting yourself out there and sharing with us your fears, resentments and other emotions in regards to your career. Once again I feel like we are long lost sisters here – I can relate and understand so much of these emotions you described. Those emotions are actually what have whittled my self-confidence down. I see others getting the attention and such that I think I should be getting but don’t, which in turn makes me feel that maybe I was never worthy of it to begin with. Instead of focusing on just ME and my own thing, I turn my focus on OTHERS and make it about them. When in the world did our own personal journies become comparable to someone else’s?! THEY AREN’T! They CAN’T be! That’s what I’m trying to digest right now…
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    • Cora | 8th Apr 17

      Yep. And it is these inner feelings that have the ability to tear us down. …. take us away from our passions, think negatively of ourselves, lose all confidence…. etc. We must work daily to find a balance between accepting others’ journey and staying open to others….yet knowing that our journey is ours, and that it is just as valuable and courageous.

  9. Ellen @ My Uncommon Everyday | 6th Apr 17

    This sounds so interesting! I’ve never heard of BodyTalk before, but I’d totally go if it were around. It reminds me a lot of chakras in yoga, which you also have to suspend some disbelief for 🙂
    And wow, yes, comparison. It is… a thing that I struggle with all the freaking time. For me, career comparison isn’t a matter of, “I know what I want and other people have it”, but rather, “Other people know what they want and I don’t – oh no I’m a failure”. Working on it.
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    • Cora | 8th Apr 17

      The Yoga Chakras are one of the systems that Bodytalk is compiled of. I don’t think they would use the word but I definitely think the notions are there.
      Ahhhh….. I’ve been there. It will come. Knowing what you want is not something that can be forced or rushed. It is just by living each day that it eventually comes to you.

  10. Joyce @ The Hungry Caterpillar | 6th Apr 17

    You’re doing something so courageous here. Like, feeling emotions is tough, but *admitting* to feeling emotions is like, “Aaaauuuugh!” I remember telling my mother that I had a huge emotional attachment to food because there was nothing else for me to hold on to or be excited about in life. It was such an uncomfortable conversation, one of the most awkward of my life.
    As for the resentment and disappointment: I could tell you that you’ve only just graduated and that there are so much more time and so many more opportunities out there to achieve your dreams…but I think you probably already know that. More useful, perhaps, is to say that you’re not alone in feeling icky emotions that you’re not proud of. I definitely have those. I think a lot of us have those.
    And you’re *not* a mean person, but the absolute opposite. I think you know that too. Just a friendly reminder.
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    • Cora | 8th Apr 17

      Thank you Joyce. It really is such a help to hear that you aren’t alone in the icky feelings. As much as we may “know” it, its so easy to feel you are “bad” because you are the only one.
      Ugh I know those parent conversations all too well. I’ve had quite a few by now, and I still feel uncomfortable and so embarrassed about them to this day. In fact I had one with my Mom this week that I’m still trying to forget it. But they will always love us…. and they’d rather us be honest then be in the dark. We just have to remember that.

  11. Evangeline | 6th Apr 17

    This is fascinating. I get frustrated with myself when I hold onto negative emotions, especially since I know they only bring stress and tightness and blockage of better, healthier emotions. Why can’t I just let them go?! ‘Talking out’ feelings is huge, but targeting areas where we hold those emotions, and where those feelings manifest themselves, seems like a beneficial practice. When I’m extra stressed, I get the “there’s a truck on my chest” feeling. And when I feel vulnerable and lacking in confidence, my hips ache. I’m not always sure that those emotions are the cause of the physical discomfort, but they do seem to exacerbate each other at the least.

    Comparison….argh. Some times I feel like total weirdo. Other times I feel like a unicorn. Some times I feel like a kick butt, goal crushing success, and then there are the times when I look back on all ways I’ve failed myself, my friends, my parents. You’re not a mean person for feeling resentment. You’re a human person who feels human things, including resentment. I feel that when I think about how messed up my perception of food is and easy it is for people who haven’t had an ED to eat and enjoy food without over thinking it. It’s something that we take for granted.
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    • Cora | 10th Apr 17

      Wow, that is so interesting about your hips. I know – and I think I experience – a sore lower back when I am depressed, so I’m not surprised about the hips. Comparison is truly just a thief joy. Keep telling yourself you are living your own story. Your own journey. And that’s all that matters. <3

  12. AmberLynn | 6th Apr 17

    I fully believe that your emotions and your body are linked in many ways. I remember that before we found out that my dad had a second family he was always having stomach issues. In all my 18 years prior to that time he’d never had that problem. The secret he was keeping was literally eating him from the inside out.
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    • Cora | 10th Apr 17

      Wow, AmberLynn. This is fascinating. Thank you for sharing.

  13. Meghan@CleanEatsFastFeets | 7th Apr 17

    I’ve never heard of body talk but what you say makes perfect sense to me. I think the body hangs onto stress and emotions which then comes out in physical reactions. I always feel it in my shoulders. I did when I was working and even now with the baby. Having the weight of the world on my shoulders makes sense, especially since that’s how I tend to view it, before having a crew of so many employees, and now with just the one tiny human.
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    • Cora | 10th Apr 17

      Each of us carries our own added set of weight. Its often too much for just one set of shoulders… but gets lighter when we ask for assistance.

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