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Hard Decisions, (Crappy) Job Luck and Typical Life Timing

I’m doing some classic Thinking Out Loud today to catch ya’ll up on a couple things. 

First up…

 

Jobs.

 

Do you remember last summer my fiasco with the business I was working for, and how they went under and didn’t pay me? Yeah, well to catch you up on that….. I still haven’t been paid. I’ve been partnered with a claims officer for the entire year and after a lot of waiting,  I did end up winning my case. My past employer was found guilty and lawfully obliged to pay me what I was owed. Not only was I not being paid, but my employer actually told the claims officers that I was paid far less per hour than I was and worked half the amount of hours per week than I actually did. Why you would lie to a government officer when there will be proof against you, I don’t know. Once I saw that I “won,” things were looking very positive as there would be extra repercussions if he did not abide. But somehow, he chose to appeal the claim anyways. So now its been sent to the Canadian Revenue Agency, who can have a bit more force but still cannot guarantee that I will get my money. So I’m still out $2600. And still waiting.

THEN

Remember that job at the breakfast restaurant I started a month ago? The one I knew I was keeping just for the interim? Turns out they worked completely under the table. After a month of working there I still hadn’t been paid, nor had I been asked to give in any banking information or told how pay works. After trying to get the low down from a fellow employee, I learned that I was just to “bring in my hours” and I’d be handed cash. Fine. Get the cash and get out. But then I had to go in three different times before they actually had my payment ready for me. My flat rate non-taxed pay. Weird thing is this place was actually really nice and not shady on the outside at all. Geez louise.  

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Second up…

 

Typical life timing and hard decisions. 

 

Its been hard not to feel down some days. For weeks I’ve been submitting for audition after audition after audition and not hearing back much of anything – not even getting into the audition room. Getting cast is one thing, but just being given the AUDITION is proving to be the hardest and most disappointing part. I was feeling particularly sad one day when I found out I didn’t get a part and still hadn’t heard back from a specific theatre company I really wanted to audition for. 

I was talking to my mom who was trying to book my flight home for my brothers’ wedding, when I apathetically just told her, “Book whenever. Not like I have anything else going on right now…”

Then literally… LITERALLY… 5 minutes later, I get an email saying I got cast in a touring fringe show. This show was to tour to the Regina, Windsor, Victoria and possibly the Vancouver fringe festivals. 

And then LITERALLY a few minutes after THAT, I get an email asking me to come in for an audition for that very theatre company I just mentioned. 

Geez Louise, Life! For weeks there’s notttthhhing and then BAM. Why are you so adamant on all this trickery!? 

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Now. Before you get excited. You are going to think I’m completely crazy when I tell you…

I turned the fringe show down. 

…I know… gasp away. 

Why!? You say. 

And believe me, there is a little voice in my head asking me the same thing. Its saying, “if you were a REAL dedicated actor, you would have taken it! You would have put everything else aside. You need to take any job that comes!

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It was a hard decision. To spare you all the details, you just have to know that after a lot of thought I decided taking this gig would actually not be the smartest choice for my career right now – as sparkly as it may sound at the onset. Travel would have been paid for, but food would have been on me and the resulting pay would have been a profit share only. So basically, a potential for not making much at all. Then there’s the fact that I would be traveling/away basically the entire summer so I would have had to a) quit my job which I JUST got three days before (when I FINALLY got a job that I actually love! #typical) and b) I would have missed the potential for Toronto auditions for both the summer and fall. Toronto is where I need to establish myself as an actor. Not Regina or Victoria. If this job had been fully paid, it would have been different. If I hadn’t had just gotten a good job, it would have been different. But my gut just knew that taking this gig would not have been the right choice. It would have been me jumping at the first opportunity just because I felt like I should. 

I did that a number of years ago, and I was miserable. 

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I need to put in the time to make my connections here in Toronto, take the classes that I have planned that are directed toward my goals, and take the risk of hopefully getting auditions for Toronto companies that I actually desire to work for. 

Taking this gig would have potentially put me on the road leading away from those things. Literally. 

But I mean, I have to put out a little, “Come onnnnnnnn life!! For weeks there’s nothing and then you tease me by finally giving me something that causes me to make this hard of a decision!? And turn it down!?”

Sure it would have been cool to tour the country. And maybe this show makes a million bucks.

But that’s the risk you take. All you can do is make a decision in the moment, knowing that you weighed all the pros and cons and made the decision based on your gut and what is best for you at that time. 

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A mentor/director recently reminded me that it is okay to wait. It’s okay to wait for a job you actually want and feels right for you. You don’t need to be “doing something all the time,” as society makes us sooooo strongly believe. 

I believe that not taking this job was the right decision and that something else is waiting for me. I believe something else is out there this summer or fall that will prove that this was meant to be. 

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***UPDATE*** 

I wrote this post Wednesday afternoon. Come Wednesday evening, I was cast in a play opening at the Toronto Fringe Festival this summer. 

……..

See?

LIFE.

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Tell me,

Have you ever had to make a difficult or risky decision in terms of taking or not taking a job?

Do you have any horror job/work stories!?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

25 COMMENTS

  1. Susie @ Suzlyfe | 18th May 17

    When it rains, it pours, but sometimes? the Rain can feel good. Proud of you for taking the risk!
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  2. Heather @ Polyglot Jot | 18th May 17

    Phew–life is exhausting with its constant twists and turns! So glad you got a job in the spot where you hoped for after all! <3
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    • Cora | 18th May 17

      Gosh when you look back at a day or two like this it IS exhausting!

  3. Emily Swanson | 18th May 17

    Life is CRAZY! Those job situations are really . . . wow. I’m thankful that you’re persistent Cora and that you haven’t given up. Also, I think one of the evidences of growth is being able to turn down the right things and say yes to the right things too. It’s been a challenge for me to know that balance, but the Lord is enabling me and leading me everyday. I don’t know where I’d be without His guidance.

    It’s interesting because I have turned down things for the blog, but when something comes along that just seems so right, it’s incredible how it just comes along, and it’s a huge blessing for the blog. šŸ™‚

    I’m so glad that you got a role after turning down that one! šŸ™‚
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    • Cora | 18th May 17

      Thank you Emily!! It is a constant wonder how the right things just seem to come to us when we stop trying or stop forcing it. Or when we least expect them. Keep letting those good bits of energy find you!!

  4. Meghan@CleanEatsFastFeets | 18th May 17

    Here I was all ready to say you gotta trust your gut and then I read your last line about the Toronto show!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!! I am so beyond stoked for you. Also, this means you’ll be in Toronto this summer yes? I’ll be in Fort Erie, Canada (so like 90 minutes away) near the end of July. If you’re around we should connect.

    The money will come from the old job when you least expect it and when you’re most in need. It’ll be like winning the lottery.
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    • Cora | 18th May 17

      Oh my goodness yes please!!! However we could make that work I am so down. I’ll put on my fairy wings and fly to you!

  5. danielle | 18th May 17

    squealing with delight, literally!!! life is super tricky and crazy but those silver linings and shimmers of sparkle do go a long way. it’s not for the faint at heart.. this whole ‘living’ and being semi conscious thing. it takes balls, and you got balls my friend. i mean that in the sparkliest of ways! bring it on!!! wish i could watch your shows but i won’t say never because i never ever say never (ever?)

    • Cora | 18th May 17

      Ugh. It takes the biggest balls. No wonder I didn’t really do the whole “living being conscious” thing for so many years. This life thing is WHACK.
      One day I will perform for you and Lulu. If I have to be a child performer in a full bodied Barney outfit to get there, so be it. Wait. Would that just terrify her? Does Barney still exist!?

  6. Miss Polkadot | 18th May 17

    Honestly? I don’t think you’re crazy for not taking that job offer at all. Here’s me talking from experience of jumping at those first chances several times before and crashing hard. Life has a weird way of playing out; definitely. I’m happy for you getting hired by the theatre company you were hoping for after all. Congratulations!
    The payment issue of your job from the past year? That’s nuts! I’ll be keeping my fingers crossed for you getting your money at some point still; sooner rather than later.

    • Cora | 18th May 17

      Yep… I think have to have made those mistakes in the past to now know better. Having learned this lessons is what made me more able to say no this time around. Still hard, but more trusting. Thank you!

  7. Laura @ Sprint 2 the Table | 18th May 17

    That’s amazing! Congratulations!!! There’s a lot to be said for intuition. I have jumped ship and taken new opportunities a couple of times because I was bored, or didn’t like the job (so really no good reason) and then down the road I hated the new job more than the last. Such a shitty feeling.
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    • Cora | 19th May 17

      Ugh boredom is such a tempting catalyst to make those jumps. It can be a shitty feeling later on, but it can also be one of those damn lessons to keep trying to learn from.

  8. Bethany | 18th May 17

    That is awesome! Life has it’s way…….
    I turned in my notice to leave work a week ago and I am a bit scared to death.
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    • Cora | 19th May 17

      Oh my gosh Bethany…. Wow. Of course you are!! This means so many new uncertain things are on the horizon. But it sounds like you are listening to your gut and what you know you need to do. So that means things are going to turn out. Just keep believing.

  9. Casey the College Celiac | 18th May 17

    What a rollercoaster of a week. All I gotta say is YOU ROCK, KEEP IT UP and HELL YEAH GIRL! I know you’ll keep kicking life’s booty and I can’t wait to hear more about your play!
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    • Cora | 19th May 17

      Thanks, girl. Life can be crazzzzyyyyyyyyy.

  10. chasetheredgrape | 18th May 17

    Yaaaas!! Well done girl! Sometimes life just likes to throw a heap of craziness at you and then boom! Something works out! So pleased for you!
    I have never had to make a difficult choice as to whether or not to take a job but I have had to help David through the decision. It’s tough but deep down I think we always know what is best to do. But it can be so hard to listen to that voice!

    • Cora | 19th May 17

      Offering help to someone else – or standing aside as you know they are working so hard internally to make that decision – can be just as agonizing. You guys did take that big intuition jump of a risk when you moved to Australia!! You guys are risk taking intuition machines.

  11. Kaylee | 19th May 17

    Okay. I am feeling frustrated just reading about your job stories. UGHHH. I remember you mentioning in another of your posts how your patience is really being tested right now and I can seriously see how even more so with this situation. But as that other aspect of you life has just shown, things will work themselves out in time.

    And CONGRATS on nailing that casting! Can you divulge what the play is about? šŸ™‚
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  12. Sarah @ Bucket List Tummy | 19th May 17

    Life is so unpredictable, isn’t it? But, it has a way of working out. There was a reason you turned down that fringe tour. You made an educated choice about balancing it and it wasn’t ultimately where you wanted to establish yourself. Isn’t it amazing you have the ability to make those choices? And then the offer at the Toronto Fringe festival – YAY CORA!!! So well deserved. Patience pays off, even though it can be so difficult. Also, I’m very angry at your old employers. I hope everything works out in your favor, like you deserve.
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  13. Leo Tat | 19th May 17

    Cora, maybe you can claim interest on the wages they owe you. With all the documented proof, they have no chance of winning the appeal.

    Congratulations on the being cast for Toronto Fringe. It took a lot of discipline to turn the other casting role down, and you did it for the right reasons. When it comes to hard decisions, I get a piece of paper, in one column have pros and the other cons. Then I make a list of the pros and cons of the a specific action I will take.
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  14. Ellie Pell | 19th May 17

    Congratulations!! I am so happy for you! I am at the point where I love my job, but miss my old town. It felt like home and I need it. So I’m going back šŸ™‚ I couldn’t be happier…unless my current job moved there…
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  15. Kristy from Southern In Law | 19th May 17

    Girl, you have not had much luck with these employers! How sketchy – and frustrating!

    Congratulations on the casting, girl! That is SO exciting!!!! <3
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  16. Lyss | 21st May 17

    AH I am so happy you got this job!! You deserve it so incredibly much- life always works in mysterious yet wondrous ways!
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