Oh man you guys
Last week was messy. Messy messy messy. It was just…really busy…I guess. Since being back from home, I’ve worked nearly every day. Eight days in a row. Ontop of that, it is now the beginning of the Toronto Fringe Festival, so in addition to opening my own show and fitting in my performances around my work schedule, I’ve been scheduling in where I can get out to see other shows.
If you haven’t noticed, my blogging has taken quite a backseat. I could go on about all the things that are going on with me…and I will do so. But you know, Sunday mornings are my time to look back at the moments that make me smile. Not at all the stress and mess and difficult days.
Amidst all the mess-i-ness of the last couple of weeks, I still managed to get in a lot of things for me. I mean…I have to. I’m not even sure what would happen if I didn’t. By the end of the week, those are the things that seem to matter the most anyways.
In the last couple weeks I…
Had an outdoor picnic with Dan. FINALLY we are having beautiful weather.
Made a batch of Sarah’s Sunflower Chocolate Chickpea Bars
Ordered and received a package of things to make better self tapes. I got myself a tripod, light reflectors and a mini lapel mic.
Started Anne Lammott’s new book, Hallelujah Anyway. She’s my favorite.
Like I’ve alluded to, things have been messy. More so than just with the busy schedule. I just kind of feel… insane. There’s a lot of internal shifts and changing feelings going on. I’m in a place of transition, it seems – yet I’m stuck somewhere in the middle between desiring change and the fear of letting go of the things I know. That all being said, there were a few moments last week where I desperately needed to show myself some calm and compassion. Taking myself out for a ritzy decaf cappuccino was one of these moments.
Another moment that – literally – kind of saved me, was this one. I was feeling like I had had zero time to myself, to catch up on all the little things like emails and scheduling. Which was making me feel pretty out of control…ya know? But in between a rehearsal and work, I managed to get in a solid two hours of outdoor desk time and caught up on what felt like a trillion things. It felt… amazing. The latte really helped too.
I had a few other necessary moments where I took myself out for a dose of comfort and reading
Every week should involve tacos, no?
I saw my therapist, and put away a load of laundry
I ordered and picked up a play from the library. Oh man. Taking out books from the library is just the BEST feeling, isn’t it!? Especially when the book is that perrrrrfect level of worn in so that it opens so effortlessly.
I had a really, really nice meeting with an agent. Just have to wait it out a little now.
Like I mentioned, I also opened my show at the fringe – three performances down – and began taking in other shows
But if you were to really ask me what’s exciting in my life right now, I would tell you it is the new additions to my family. Guys, I have a new baby!! Actually… two! To join their Kombucha siblings, please meet my very first sourdough starter and homemade ghee!! Get ready for ALL the sourdough baking. If I can continue to figure it out…
More on making my own ghee in an upcoming post.
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See, I need to fit in these things. On top of the “needs” and “shoulds” of making a career and making money etc. etc, these are the things that make me happy. I know adding things to an already full schedule has the potential to just add more stress, but without them, I just see myself exploding. In some sort of even messier mess than the mess I already am.
What do you need to do when your life feels messy?
Have you made anything recently? – be it baking, fermentation, a craft, art, babies…?
This double chocolate loaf may resemble an indulgent dessert, but I assure you it fits…