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Week In Review: Getting outside, Getting a job, and Doing What Is Uncomfortable

This week… it felt as though a sense of control was starting to find its way in. Things still feel weird as I continue to adjust and messily fill my schedule with trial and error activities, but last week some things began to feel a bit more grounded. 

There was lots of that feeling of summer starting. You know that feeling I’m talking about? The first few days where you get to walk outside without a jacket, or you sit in a park for your first evening picnic? It always makes me super nostalgic and usually accompanies feelings of being homesick. Its one of those hard mixed with nice feelings… and one which I had quite a bit this week. 

That being said, there was also an onslaught of freaking wouldn’t go away rain. 

I think when I’m feeling unsure of my current feelings (and er, life) like I am this week, I love the Week In Review even more. It grounds me by letting me see the tangible moments of my week so that I can remember where I got to, and where I’m taking off from now as a new week begins. Thank you, as always, to Meg for letting me recount the accomplishments I had in this past week. 

Last week I….

  • Watched a lot of rain from windows. As I mentioned. 

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  • But also had my first afternoon in a park! I had time to kill before a job interview, so I just took myself to Trinity Bellwoods, lay down in the sun, meditated, and then did some good journaling. That’s three big accomplishments in one. 

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  • Then I went and got myself a Chipolte Bacon Veggie Burger from Fresh and had my first outdoor picnic. 

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  • I went to two auditions.  I learned the entire script for the one – worked hard on it – and felt really good about what I did. I rehearsed a couple monologues for the other, and also felt good about the work. But it does not seem like I got either. Sigh. 
  • I also learned a few different sides and recorded three self tapes to send away. 

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Rehearsing a script with a side of park dogs and burgers

  • I started, quit, got, turned down, got and accepted a JOB.

Let me explain. I worked a trial shift at a job and, well, basically came home in tears. It just brought up a lot of really hard feelings and it was not somewhere I wanted to see myself. So I listened to my gut, contacted them the next day and told them I would not be taking the job after all. Then I was given the job at Toris!! But… why do things always happen at once? I had also just been offered a job at my first choice, Fresh!! See burger above and basically 20 blog posts where I gush about this being my favorite restaurant. I worked at one of the restaurants’ locations years ago, and it was always where I envisioned myself working again. So the fact that at least one of my hopeful visions is coming true… feels nice. Weird, but nice. 

I would have loved to have worked at Toris, too, so it was hard to turn down. But I know how happy I was working at Fresh before, and I am so passionate about the food and clientele, so I think I am going to be happy there again. Basically I’m just glad THAT whole uncomfortable mess is finally coming to an end. Crazy town. 

  • One of my favorite accomplishments actually is that I, once again, cleared and organized the pictures on my computer and phone. I’ve decided from now on I am just going to…. keep less. I’m being more cut throat with the delete button as I go along and it feels goo000d. 

  • I spent three half days in a women’s workshop for Collective Theatre Creation. Theatre creation in groups is not work I enjoy or find mentally easy to do, so I basically signed up for this specifically to work on why I have trouble with it and maybe even get more comfortable with it. I’m stretching a muscle I don’t like to stretch, so I’m not yet sure if that was a good idea or not. But someone once told me if you are uncomfortable with something, you probably should do more of it. 
  • I fell in love with The Great British Bake Off and ate a lot of chocolate
  • I took the bus to Guelph for the weekend where Dan and I were able to cross off a number of things from our bucketlist. 

We finally tried the new vegan restaurant Cadence where I unintentionally celebrated Cinco de Mayo with a glorious plate of vegan nachos. I am allll for real cheese, believe me, but I was quite intrigued with the notion of smokey maple tempeh, nacho “cheese,” beans, tofu sour cream and organic corn chips….. it was sooo good

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We had a coffee date at The Common. I had heard about their excellent coffee, and it did not disappoint. Organic and fair trade to boot. 

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I got a new (used) bike!! Did I tell you my old bike’s (Lilly) seat got stolen? Yeah… #torontoliving. I’d been holding off but I couldn’t turn down an offer on this sexy gal for under $100. 

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I had an uncomfortable morning getting back to Toronto, but at least I had a massive iced cherry scone and delicious americano to keep me company on the bus. 

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Bus breakfast. Think the guy sitting beside me saw me drool?    

 

This time is proving to be interesting. Its a mix of swamping myself with things to do – find work, work, audition, look for auditions, take classes – and this sense of not really knowing what to do. There’s a lot of doing things that kind of make me uncomfortable – like having open time to myself –  but maybe that is stretching a muscle that needs to be stretched. I think I am just in a phase where I am having to learn, and be patient. 

Doing what is uncomfortable and having patience, but enjoying the sun as I go! #weekinreview with… Click To Tweet

Tell me,

Have you ever signed up for something specifically because you knew it made you uncomfortable?

Have you had an outdoor picnic yet this year??

What are you having patience with right now?

 

29 COMMENTS

  1. Emily Swanson | 8th May 17

    Ok. So I’m seriously SUPER EXCITED that you got that job; what a huge blessing. I think I’ve ridden a few roller coasters with my sisters because I knew that they would be incredibly uncomfortable for me; it was a wonderful way of overcoming fears. If I had been the person sitting by you on the bus I would probably kinda drool over your delicious choice of baked goods.
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    • Cora | 16th May 17

      Thank you Emily!! I’m so relieved and happy to have gotten a job I actually love. I’m curious to know more about these roller coasters…. maybe when we get our phone chat?

  2. chasetheredgrape | 8th May 17

    Keep stretching that muscle girl – it’s uncomfortable but you know it’s going in the right direction.
    Massive congrats on the job! Its so great that you got a job at a place you love!
    We had rain here one day too… Although it was just for one single evening… Lasted an hour or so… And haven’t had any since. It was our first rain in 43 days! And we are in the midst of autumn! #AussieLife

    • Cora | 16th May 17

      43 days!? Oh my gosh. I’ll gladly package you up some fresh Canadian rain water and send it over. Lord knows we are swimming in it. Thank you for the congrats <3

  3. Susie @ Suzlyfe | 8th May 17

    Yay for the job! I know what it is like to be in the lurch with that–having it will just relieve so much pressure that I’m sure you are feeling. Getting uncomfortable… think of the discomfort as a blessing to show that you have feelings and are alive. Kind of like pushing a bruise. maybe?
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    • Cora | 16th May 17

      Pressure and just…. happiness. I know its a service job but I am literally so happy there. A lot like what you’ve been saying about your current job and being noticed/knowing you are appreciated for your serving. I know I’m really good at this job, so that boosts morale on so many levels.
      Do you know the song “Being Alive” from the musical Company? Think we could take that one on the road, along with all our pushed bruises.

  4. Cindy | 8th May 17

    Congratulations, congratulations, congratulations. You are incredible. I am so excited that you got the job – and about your SCONE!
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    • Cora | 16th May 17

      Thanks Cindy!! Wanna come into Fresh and say hi!? πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

  5. Jamie@TheMomGene | 8th May 17

    It sounds to me like you’re adjusting like a champ. I’m so glad you got the job that will be the perfect fit. You NEEDED that. Also, that “delete all the things” meme is hilarious πŸ˜‚

    • Cora | 16th May 17

      Jamie – thank you. I DID need this. So badly. I’m really happy there.

  6. Sarah @ Bucket List Tummy | 8th May 17

    I think you’re brave to share your voice and choose the actual job you do want – it will pay off, if you will look forward to working there. It sounds like an amazing place to work! And smoky tempeh vegan nachos? I’d eat those any day. So glad you crossed a trip off your bucket list – you know that’s my favorite thing! Have a great week lovely.
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    • Cora | 16th May 17

      Oh Sarah you’d loovveeee this restaurant. It would be the first place we’d go if you come to Toronto. We’d get burgers and their vegan poutine. Swooooooon.

  7. Kat | 8th May 17

    Congrats on the new job girl!!
    And those nachos. OMG. My hubby is out of town all week so I’ve got a few “must-dos” for myself this week and make myself nachos is on the list! There is also “find gluten-free donuts”, just in case you were wondering πŸ˜‰
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    • Cora | 16th May 17

      I WAS wondering and I am VERY happy that this was also on the list. Now I need to know, was there success!?!? Thank you for the congrats <3... and I hope time at home without the hubby went okay.

  8. Heather @ Polyglot Jot | 8th May 17

    Such a time of transition for you! Sounds like you’re finding your new “normal”. Glad you got the job that you were hoping for! I’m trying to be more patient with the things that I can’t control. Also, I really want those nachos!! OMG!
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    • Cora | 16th May 17

      Haha you have the BIGGEST form of practicing patience right now, Heather!! I’d be throwing patience out the damn window and just saying/doing whatever I wanted to if I were you! And eating all the nachos. You should get on that. πŸ™‚
      Thank you for the congrats. I’m really happy at this job, so I’m beyond grateful for that.

  9. Casey the College Celiac | 8th May 17

    Those vegan nachos look like a flippin’ FIESTA in your mouth, man! Yum! And congrats on the job! It definitely seems like opportunities can come in groups…

    As for signing up for something that’ll make me uncomfortable? That’s basically grad school for me! A new state, first apartment on my own, first time teaching college…a lot of firsts!
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    • Cora | 16th May 17

      Your whole upcoming life is a practice in being uncomfortable, girl. Firsts are always scary. But EXCITING! So exciting!!!

  10. Ellie Pell | 8th May 17

    The Great British Bake-Off is the best show on Netflix! I’m so happy to hear about the job (we’re TWINNING!) This will keep you occupied and content for now <3
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    • Cora | 16th May 17

      Ahhhh you watch it too!?! Yay!!

  11. Kate | 8th May 17

    There is much exciting stuff in this post!! congrats on being assertive on choosing the job best for you.
    Also, that veggie burger looks awesome and so creative.
    I am planning to start The Great British Bake-Off ASAP. I’ve heard lots of good things.
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    • Cora | 16th May 17

      Oh I think you’d love it. My favorite part about it is that it is SO unlike any American cooking/baking show – cough cough Gordan Ramsay – where the judges are mean and everyone is super stressed and competitive. Everyone on this show is SO NICE and supportive of each other. It proves you don’t need all that other suspense to make a captivating show.

  12. Bethany | 9th May 17

    I am totally living the life of limbo now and it is the hardest for me! I need a routine! That burger and coffee looks amazing btw!

    • Cora | 16th May 17

      Ahhh you are too!? Its hard, especially just trying to quiet that voice that says you should be working on or toward something. What are you doing to keep your days happy?

  13. Hannah | 10th May 17

    Congrats on the job!

    I love the Great British Bakeoff. And nachos.

    • Cora | 16th May 17

      Thank you! We could spend many an evening together then it seems….

  14. danielle | 10th May 17

    oh golly gee wilickers, yes yes yes and yes to all. i used to be terrified of my perfectly regimented life falling out of place, but that was another life time ago and deep in my issue pool. i used to be seriously riddled with anxiety and worry that if something didn’t happen according to plan, my life would literally collapse. i started to claw my way out of the hole, bit by bit. i had spinal fusion in 1999 and in 2001 i remember signing up for a long distance bike ride from Houston to Shiner, Texas, literally to attend a beer festival. i didn’t even own a bike and had not ridden outside in many years prior to that, and i had spinal fusion a couple of years before this. I was terrified of falling (and breaking my spine and dying) and terrified of riding a bike outdoors, but decided i NEEDED to break out of my hole and comfort zone. food and denial were taking over my life and i knew i needed something bigger than myself to get out of my own way. so yes, i bought a bike and just a few weeks later rode 100+ miles to Shiner. my ass nearly broke off, if you can imagine, and i was the 2nd to last person to arrive, but i did it. and realized that i actually could do something terrifying and everything would be OK. my point is gosh yes, i’ve done so many ridiculous things to get out of my comfort zone because i know that i’m my worst enemy and am seduced by rituals and comfort, which lead me to dangerous places… however i thrive on structure and routines as well. damn life is conflicting. i wish i could say i figured it all out, but one thing i can say is that doing the scary stuff really isn’t necessary. these days i want to do all the things that bring me JOY. i’m a JOY junkie and proud of it. bring me all the JOY!!!

    • Cora | 16th May 17

      Have I ever told you you are the most incredible person I know? I think I have. But I am going to continue saying it. Seriously……. you continue to inspire me in ways I didn’t even know I could be inspired.
      I mean the bike ride – obviously – but mostly for being so damn self aware and BRAVE and forcing yourself into things because you know they are what you need to fight against your personal inner struggle. Geez louise. I havn’t been able to find that type of bravery yet. To REALLY fight against the things I hold so deeply, secretly, hidden inside.

  15. Kaylee | 17th May 17

    Eeek so sorry to hear about the bike! But yay for the job! Does this mean more veggie burgers among other Fresh things in your life? Regarding the auditions, just keep trying like I know you are. What is meant to be will be. It’s really their loss; they’re missing out on your amazingness. πŸ’ž

    Also, is that tempeh bacon on your burger?? 😏 Looks gosh darn delish. There’s something about eating outdoors that really calms me. Planning on taking myself on a picnic sometime this summer–with the blanket and all.

    The past few days have really been testing my patience actually. There’s a scholarship app due on Friday which requires I send in my transcript but dealing with multiple registrar’s offices has got me going back and forth. Siiiigh. Making this much harder than it needs to be.
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