This week… it felt as though a sense of control was starting to find its way in. Things still feel weird as I continue to adjust and messily fill my schedule with trial and error activities, but last week some things began to feel a bit more grounded.
There was lots of that feeling of summer starting. You know that feeling I’m talking about? The first few days where you get to walk outside without a jacket, or you sit in a park for your first evening picnic? It always makes me super nostalgic and usually accompanies feelings of being homesick. Its one of those hard mixed with nice feelings… and one which I had quite a bit this week.
That being said, there was also an onslaught of
freaking wouldn’t go away rain.
I think when I’m feeling unsure of my current feelings (and er, life) like I am this week, I love the Week In Review even more. It grounds me by letting me see the tangible moments of my week so that I can remember where I got to, and where I’m taking off from now as a new week begins. Thank you, as always, to Meg for letting me recount the accomplishments I had in this past week.
Last week I….
Rehearsing a script with a side of park dogs and burgers
Let me explain. I worked a trial shift at a job and, well, basically came home in tears. It just brought up a lot of really hard feelings and it was not somewhere I wanted to see myself. So I listened to my gut, contacted them the next day and told them I would not be taking the job after all. Then I was given the job at Toris!! But… why do things always happen at once? I had also just been offered a job at my first choice, Fresh!! See burger above and basically 20 blog posts where I gush about this being my favorite restaurant. I worked at one of the restaurants’ locations years ago, and it was always where I envisioned myself working again. So the fact that at least one of my hopeful visions is coming true… feels nice. Weird, but nice.
I would have loved to have worked at Toris, too, so it was hard to turn down. But I know how happy I was working at Fresh before, and I am so passionate about the food and clientele, so I think I am going to be happy there again. Basically I’m just glad THAT whole uncomfortable mess is finally coming to an end. Crazy town.
We finally tried the new vegan restaurant Cadence where I unintentionally celebrated Cinco de Mayo with a glorious plate of vegan nachos. I am allll for real cheese, believe me, but I was quite intrigued with the notion of smokey maple tempeh, nacho “cheese,” beans, tofu sour cream and organic corn chips….. it was sooo good.
We had a coffee date at The Common. I had heard about their excellent coffee, and it did not disappoint. Organic and fair trade to boot.
I got a new (used) bike!! Did I tell you my old bike’s (Lilly) seat got stolen? Yeah… #torontoliving. I’d been holding off but I couldn’t turn down an offer on this sexy gal for under $100.
I had an uncomfortable morning getting back to Toronto, but at least I had a massive iced cherry scone and delicious americano to keep me company on the bus.
Bus breakfast. Think the guy sitting beside me saw me drool?
This time is proving to be interesting. Its a mix of swamping myself with things to do – find work, work, audition, look for auditions, take classes – and this sense of not really knowing what to do. There’s a lot of doing things that kind of make me uncomfortable – like having open time to myself – but maybe that is stretching a muscle that needs to be stretched. I think I am just in a phase where I am having to learn, and be patient.Doing what is uncomfortable and having patience, but enjoying the sun as I go! #weekinreview with… Click To Tweet
Have you ever signed up for something specifically because you knew it made you uncomfortable?
Have you had an outdoor picnic yet this year??
What are you having patience with right now?