I’ve already written a lot. I’ve written more about my craziness and up and down feelings in these past couple of weeks than I usually do, so I hope to keep this brief.
There is a balance between pushing yourself in a way that you feel proud, and pushing yourself a bit too far. For instance last week’s Week In Review – I regret none of it. I feel so proud of all the ways I am pushing myself to get out there and work hard. However you can also push yourself a bit too far, and for the wrong reasons – out of self induced pressure or mere adrenaline. I realized last week I had started to cross this line.
So I stopped. My mother helped me realize that I had already done a lot, and now it was time to let go. Sometimes we need to trust that even if we havn’t done “everything” we could, we have done a lot, and now we need to rest.
So for today’s WIR I’m focusing NOT on all the “productive” things I did – like emails and submissions and groceries etc. – because right now even the thought of those things makes me dizzy. Rather, I am focusing only on the things I did to slow down, restore, and take back some self care that I had been missing.
Thank you Meg
All in all I’m feeling a lot better. Since I brought myself down with that writing, and further with my appointment, and even further with some incredibly wonderful time with Dan. I’m feeling rather sad… but I think that is to be expected now that I’m not letting anxiety act as a mask.
Thank you, everyone.
So tell me,
What would you do if you got yourself to “stop” and slow down?
For those of you who stopped by yesterday, thank you. Yesterday’s post paints…