I’ve already written a lot. I’ve written more about my craziness and up and down feelings in these past couple of weeks than I usually do, so I hope to keep this brief.
There is a balance between pushing yourself in a way that you feel proud, and pushing yourself a bit too far. For instance last week’s Week In Review – I regret none of it. I feel so proud of all the ways I am pushing myself to get out there and work hard. However you can also push yourself a bit too far, and for the wrong reasons – out of self induced pressure or mere adrenaline. I realized last week I had started to cross this line.
So I stopped. My mother helped me realize that I had already done a lot, and now it was time to let go. Sometimes we need to trust that even if we havn’t done “everything” we could, we have done a lot, and now we need to rest.
So for today’s WIR I’m focusing NOT on all the “productive” things I did – like emails and submissions and groceries etc. – because right now even the thought of those things makes me dizzy. Rather, I am focusing only on the things I did to slow down, restore, and take back some self care that I had been missing.
Thank you Meg
All in all I’m feeling a lot better. Since I brought myself down with that writing, and further with my appointment, and even further with some incredibly wonderful time with Dan. I’m feeling rather sad… but I think that is to be expected now that I’m not letting anxiety act as a mask.
Thank you, everyone.
So tell me,
What would you do if you got yourself to “stop” and slow down?