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Week In Review: Stress and Baby

Hi all

I’m feeling stressed and unable to really put together a post

The party is over at Meg’s!

But I’m breathing through it

Stress and Baby Week In Review

…with the help of cookie breaks

 

This week

I lost out on the third offer for an apartment I have made. Three places now that I have let myself fall in love with, and then be told “they have chosen someone else.” It’s just become heart breaking. I don’t really think I can take any more rejection. And that’s coming from an actor. Worst part is I don’t really know what I/we are doing wrong. Actually no, the worst part, is now the feeling I have that I am going to have to settle for somewhere I do not like or am not happy. That is the worst thing. I just want somewhere I feel happy. This has all just been a reminder of how many people are in this city/world and how we are all cramming into tiny corners wherever we can. It baffles me the amount of competition that is out there. All the time. No matter the month. 

I fought tooth and nail for this last place. I did all I could. I waited. I learned we didn’t get it. And I went back to the drawing board with more searching, more emails, more viewings. 

I also 

Made it to the farmers market to pick up another kabocha 

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And discovered brussel sprout trees!?

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I picked up a scone at said market, even though I should have eaten what’s in my fridge

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I caught up on my day book and got a bunch of shifts covered for all the time off I will be taking this month

I had an audition 

I had a coaching

I filled out, printed and sent in all the remaining papers to my agent 

I cleaned up a few things from my fridge and freezer: a tub of ice cream, a container of jam, a bag of M&Ms and threw away a couple things I know I won’t eat. 

I ate a bunch of salad, too. 

I put out two posts – one on Thursday and Friday 

In one of those posts I already told you that I baked muffins 

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…and was mightily impressed with the outcome

I organized and purged a bunch of old papers and school work

And packed a box of books

I had a bath

And most importantly

Something which is way more important than my fatigue and stress about finding a place to live

Is

I became an Aunt

My brother had the most beautiful baby girl last Tuesday, October 10th. My grandma’s birthday. 

She is the healthiest, most beautiful baby  not even a bias here (well okay maybe some) – with the thickest head of hair on a newborn I have ever seen! 

I’m sad I’m not there to introduce myself in person, but I had a video chat with the family and was fascinated at how natural my brother and sister-in-law seem to be as parents. My brother – gah – I’m ridiculously excited to see him as a parent. I didn’t even know he knew how to hold a baby.

I can’t wait to meet her and start all of the mischievous aunty-niece adventures we will (secretly – don’t tell parents) have. 

Stress and Baby Week In Review

Stress and Baby Week In Review

Welcome to the world, Chloe 

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45 COMMENTS

  1. Cindy | 15th Oct 17

    Chloe is so beautiful <3 Congratulations to your brother and the whole family! I wish I could LOVEx100 this post. Thank you for sharing – this is so special. Also loving that cookie!
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      You’re the best Cindy. Thank you <3

  2. Emily Swanson | 16th Oct 17

    <3 Dear Cora, I know that it's tough to wait, but I'm praying for a place you can call your home there. <3 Just keep waiting and working!

    And your niece is ADORABLE; you are going to be such an amazing auntie; I can imagine that you will have s many sweet adventures with her; you can teach her to bake and find all the best goodies in coffee shops.
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      Oh I’m waiting. Got no choice but to wait. And I’m definitely working. Ugh.

      Mmm I hope she has a sweet tooth like me. May take a few years to have coffee dates though 🙂

  3. jac | 16th Oct 17

    Your niece is absolutely divine. Congratulations. I love her hair!
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  4. Jamie@TheMomGene | 16th Oct 17

    That hair!!! Is your mom over-the-moon? You are going to be a stellar aunt ??❤️❤️❤️

    PS there’s nothing as stressful as job-searching and home-buying. Ick.

    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      I’ll try to up my cool factor. She’ll probably see right through though. Oh well. Maybe I’ll at least be a source of entertainment.

      …you should see the knitting projects my Mom already has built up.

  5. Nicole @ Laughing My Abs Off | 16th Oct 17

    Awww congrats on becoming an aunt; Chloe is absolutely gorgeous!! Sorry about the apartment hunt; it’s really tough, but you know what they say, all of these crappy experiences will all feel like nothing and be absolutely worth it when you find the apartment that’s actually most right for you. And I’m sure you won’t need to settle; you don’t sound like a settler 😉 Best of luck in your search!!
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      I sure hope so…

      Sometimes you just want to sulk in the present crappiness of it all – aha. Thank you Nicole

  6. Alyssa | 16th Oct 17

    wow so exciting you became an aunt!! congrats cora thats so cool 🙂 love that you made it to the farmers market too- i need to go. seriously love fresh produce from there. happy monday!
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      Even if I don’t need anything, I look forward to going to the market each weekend just for that fresh air and comforting vibe I get. Even if just for 10 minutes.

  7. Sarah @ Bucket List Tummy | 16th Oct 17

    What a beautiful baby! Congratulations to your brother, your family and you as an auntie. How exciting! I love all of the scones and muffins you show on your blog, I always leave feeling hungry. I’m sorry that third apartment didn’t work out. I still have hope that you will find one. Is there any way you can stay in your current apartment, or would it be too small for you and Dan?
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      Thanks, Sarah. It would a) be too small and b) I gave my notice a couple of months ago and he found a tenant who will be moving in Nov.1 almost immediately. So – I really need to get my bum out of there aha. Sigh.

  8. Kat | 16th Oct 17

    Congrats on becoming an Aunt! Isn’t it the best? I love being an aunt so much – mostly because I get to be the “cool” one 😉
    I’m sorry to hear about the apartment woes. When we were looking for a home to buy there were several that we were outbid on or the seller wouldn’t budge on the price to accommodate our budget – it was super frustrating, tiring and stressful, so I get it. I really don’t have any answers other than to be patient and stay vigilant. Something will come along!
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      I’m going to try – and probably no matter what she says always say that I am – the “cool” one… but she’s most likely going to see right through me. Oh well. Hope she loves me anyways 🙂

  9. Miss Polkadot | 16th Oct 17

    Oh Cora, that’s the most amazing news ever. Congratulations on becoming an aunt! Chloé is precious and no, you really aren’t biased in saying she’s the most beautiful baby. Okay, given I’m an aunt myself I probably can’t let you have that title all for yourself but really: she’s so sweet. I hope you’ll get to see her sometime soon[ish].
    Onto the less pleasant news here: sigh and big hug. Apartment and job hunting are the same kind of effing frustrating. Please remember that you. did. Nothing. Wrong. I remember when I was about to move out of one of my previous apartments and having potential next tenants visit. Now I obviously didn’t have any say in the proprietor’s decision but I was pretty sure of the couple he’d pick – and then he chose somebody completely different. Made no sense to me. Fingers crossed you’ll end up with not just any place but one you’ll truly feel at home in.
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      I think we can share the title 🙂

      Oh god I really don’t know if one is worse – apartment or job hunting. They are both AWFUL.

      Thank you for the this reminder though. This really helped to read. I hope I haven’t done anything wrong. I try to remind myself that most of it is just out of my control. Still doesn’t help the fact that it all just feels so unfair though. Thanks love.

  10. chasetheredgrape | 16th Oct 17

    Aww Chloe is gorgeous! I bet it is such a wonderful feeling to become an auntie! I bet you have so much love already even though you have never met!
    So sorry to hear about the apartments. For me, I always leave my emotions at the door when doing viewings. I put my practical head on and keep it that way until I hear the news if we have it or not. Then I let the emotions in. I can do this but I know others not so much – like David – he goes in with his head and heart! Just remember, if you don’t get it then it was never meant to be your home…

    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      I’m mostly just so amazed, happy and excited at seeing my brother be a Dad. I know a whole slew of new emotions will come when I actually get to meet her. Which I wish was sooner than it will be.

      After those first three heart breaks, I have made a solid – numbing – pact to myself to not get my heart involved anymore. I’m not letting myself get my hopes up anymore. It hurts too much. David and I sound pretty similar in this..

  11. Joyce @ The Hungry Caterpillar | 16th Oct 17

    Awwwwwwwwww congrats auntie! It must be such a weird feeling to see your brother as a dad. You must be so excited!
    And I’m so sad to hear about your apartment. Is the housing market in Toronto as competitive as it is here? Sounds super-stressful. And disappointing. I definitely know that feeling of getting my heart set on a particular place, and that’s not even to mention the stability factor that you and Dan need a place to live. I so hope it’ll work out well!
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      It is so weird. Weird but so awesome and exciting too.

      The housing market here is INSANE. Like, I can’t believe how much it has changed within even the last 3 years.

  12. Casey the College Celiac | 16th Oct 17

    Your niece is ADORABLE! Stress has been a constant companion lately, between the crazy workload of grad school classes, teaching, blogging, writing and battling homesickness…but, on the bright side, I’m LOVING seeing the change in season for the first time in over 6 years, listening to allll the audiobooks from the library and eating some yummy food! Keep kicking life’s booty, girl! YOU GOT THIS!
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      And you keep those bits of comfort at the forefront, k? Make sure you are taking time to breathe in the fresh fall air, eat good food, and talk to your family LOTS. Sending love your way.

  13. Hannah | 17th Oct 17

    Ugh, apartment hunting can be so stressful. It’s totally reasonable to expect to feel happy in your home though. Hope you get accepted at a “homey” place soon. In the meantime, I’m sure the photos of that cute little baby face help ease the stress at least a little.

    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      She does make it hard to stay frowning <3

  14. danielle | 17th Oct 17

    holy moly Chloe is the cutest little baby i’ve ever seen!!!! wow! she looks like a little Eskimo baby, so precious. i’m so happy for your family. wow. golly gee that just makes me warm inside. not all babies are that cute but they are all miracles. Chloe is a cutie pie miracle, and what a special day. I love it, 10/10. love it!
    what is stressful??? geeezzzzusssss don’tget me started. when i’m stress i literally get sick inside and out. my skin is going through some craziness. like for real. i’ve been to so many docs lately and had testing.. still waiting. it’s painful and frustrating. life is filled with such highs and lows that i literally just need to hang on to the safety rail. it’s pretty amazing though, i really can’t complain 🙂 but i sure could use one of your scones right now!

    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      She does doesn’t she! That’s what I said!

      You are amazing. Don’t know how you do it. Sending relaxing breaths (and a virtual scone) your way <3

  15. Juli@1000lovelythings | 17th Oct 17

    Aaaaah crossing my fingers for the apartment hunt! I can imagine how frustrating that must be! Rejection just sucks especially when you have already furnished a place in your head :-/

    Buuuuut congratulations on becoming an aunt!!!!! That’s so awesome! Okay being an aunt is fantastic! I have 4 nieces and one nephew and I love them to pieces. Seriously when I come to see them and their faces light up and they come to cuddle and want to play with me my heart just bursts with joy. My 10 year old and I had a proper long Harry Potter chat last week. I almost died. And we went to a fossil quarry with my nephew on Sunday and it was so cool! Being an aunt is just wonderful and I am so happy for you that you get to experience that! Also I have no doubt that you’ll be the cool aunt and a lot of shenanigans are going to happen between the two of you! Spoil her rotten!
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      This just got me really excited. Thanks Juli 🙂

  16. Ellie Pell | 17th Oct 17

    Want to know my stress? Text me and we can catch up 🙂 I will make you feel less alone on the house hunting, and make you love no matter what you find. Home is where the love is…or where the place to nap is available hahaha
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  17. Susie @ Suzlyfe | 18th Oct 17

    Congratulations on becoming an aunt! I’m stressed out by not being stressed out. I want things to do, I want to feel produtive. I want to feel whole again by feeling fulfilled. I’m stressed trying to find a walker for my dog. It shouldn’t be this hard! I have amazing people stepping up to help me, and yet I’m still stressed by it all.
    I need to get over myself. I should also probably not eat as much chocolate because I’m sure the sugar isn’t helping anyone.
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      I get that stress. It can feel completely itchy and restless and just kind of soul-blah. I’m sorry. You have a lot of stress right now. I hope you continue to take care of your self. You really deserve it Suz.

  18. Meghan@CleanEatsFastFeets | 18th Oct 17

    What a beautiful baby! She’s adorable. Big congratulations to the whole family; being an aunt is the best.

    You had a rather impressive and busy week, which might be cause for the stress. What that and the apartment business. Don’t give up; keep searching and don’t settle. You will ultimately find and get a place you love and you and Dan together will make it a home.

    Blows kiss.
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      I sure hope so. Thanks Meg.

  19. Evangeline | 18th Oct 17

    She is beautiful! Congrats on your new auntie status. Hmmm stress…it blows, no? Thanks for being open and telling it how it is. I am sorry you’re in the mist of all this icky stress currently. I’m hoping that you’ll end up in the place that feels right, preferably sooner rather than later for your sake. Thankfully these things have a way of working themselves out eventually. But I realize that isn’t super comforting in the middle of it all. Hugs <3
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      They do…. but sometimes it can be really hard to keep believe that. Thanks Vangie. You always have the most honest, level headed way of supporting.

  20. Naomi @ Naomi Why: Roots | 19th Oct 17

    She is absolutely perfect. <3 <3 <3 Aunties who go on mischievous adventures are the best kind.

    I'm so, so sorry about the stress you've been undergoing. I know that doesn't really help, but know that I'm rooting for you. Keep breathing through it. Keep finding joy in the everyday. Love that you share your life with us.
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      Haha, even when my life is a jaded pessimistic mess!?! Thanks Naomi. Means a lot. And you are crazy wise for your age….

  21. Laura @ Sprint 2 the Table | 19th Oct 17

    That is one cute little baby! At least you have her to make you smile. Looking for places is the worst. We got booted from our last place unexpectedly and I flipped my sh*t. Hang in there – you’ll find something!

    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      I don’t ever understand that. That’s WAY more stressful than even all the shit I’m having to deal with.

  22. Kristy from Southern In Law | 20th Oct 17

    Congratulations, Aunty Cora!

    I feel you on the stress. I’m crossing my fingers for you that you find the perfect place soon, gorgeous!
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    • Cora | 21st Oct 17

      Thanks, Kristy <3

  23. Week In Review: Taking Time To Be a Pessimist (Apartment Woes) | 23rd Oct 17

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  24. Kaylee | 27th Oct 17

    🙁 Sorry to hear about the apartment search. As with anything in life, all we can do is trust that things that happen happen for the best even when it doesn’t feel that way in the moment.

    Congrats to your family on the baby! Though I swear when I first saw the title of this post I questioned if you were pregnant ? Was wondering if it had really been that long since I read your posts?!!

    Stressing over all the things that have to get done in the last couple of months of the year (e.g. exams, gift shopping, other plans). Ack. Time is catching up with me!!

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