I’m feeling stressed and unable to really put together a post
The party is over at Meg’s!
But I’m breathing through it
…with the help of cookie breaks
I lost out on the third offer for an apartment I have made. Three places now that I have let myself fall in love with, and then be told “they have chosen someone else.” It’s just become heart breaking. I don’t really think I can take any more rejection. And that’s coming from an actor. Worst part is I don’t really know what I/we are doing wrong. Actually no, the worst part, is now the feeling I have that I am going to have to settle for somewhere I do not like or am not happy. That is the worst thing. I just want somewhere I feel happy. This has all just been a reminder of how many people are in this city/world and how we are all cramming into tiny corners wherever we can. It baffles me the amount of competition that is out there. All the time. No matter the month.
I fought tooth and nail for this last place. I did all I could. I waited. I learned we didn’t get it. And I went back to the drawing board with more searching, more emails, more viewings.
Made it to the farmers market to pick up another kabocha
And discovered brussel sprout trees!?
I picked up a scone at said market, even though I should have eaten what’s in my fridge
I caught up on my day book and got a bunch of shifts covered for all the time off I will be taking this month
I had an audition
I had a coaching
I filled out, printed and sent in all the remaining papers to my agent
I cleaned up a few things from my fridge and freezer: a tub of ice cream, a container of jam, a bag of M&Ms and threw away a couple things I know I won’t eat.
I ate a bunch of salad, too.
In one of those posts I already told you that I baked muffins
…and was mightily impressed with the outcome
I organized and purged a bunch of old papers and school work
And packed a box of books
I had a bath
And most importantly
Something which is way more important than my fatigue and stress about finding a place to live
I became an Aunt
My brother had the most beautiful baby girl last Tuesday, October 10th. My grandma’s birthday.
She is the healthiest, most beautiful baby – not even a bias here (well okay maybe some) – with the thickest head of hair on a newborn I have ever seen!
I’m sad I’m not there to introduce myself in person, but I had a video chat with the family and was fascinated at how natural my brother and sister-in-law seem to be as parents. My brother – gah – I’m ridiculously excited to see him as a parent. I didn’t even know he knew how to hold a baby.
I can’t wait to meet her and start all of the mischievous aunty-niece adventures we will (secretly – don’t tell parents) have.
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Not a hugely exciting week. But I did get a few nice things…