Hi lovely friends,
Last week, to relive all the good feelings, I recapped my brother’s wedding. I didn’t have a chance to talk much more about my time at home, though. I don’t want to let the visit go by without documenting some of the life-giving accomplishments that were had during this time, so I’m using this week’s Week In Review to go back and relive some of those moments.
Thank you, Meg!
Home was really wonderful – as you already got a sense of from my last post. I felt the best I had felt in a really long time. I felt relaxed and…. well, happy. Something not to be taken for granted. Also something pretty fascinating when you think of the power of home and being around family and friends. It’s like these things have the ability to just sweep all dark clouds out from under you. To give myself some credit, however, I did do some work and basically plea to the uppers to let me enjoy my time before I left. I wanted the dark spiral I was getting myself in to just leave me alone, so badly. I was not willing to let myself ruin my own – or any one else’ – experiences. That’s what I hate the most.
I’m pretty happy, and I guess proud, to say that I felt far better about my over all mood – toward myself and others – than I think I ever have when being at home. Sometimes it can be a hairy experience, as I think a lot of you know. But for whatever reason, this time, I was able to feel more relaxed and more myself.
I enjoyed a morning at the farmers market… and picked up a few treats a long the way
Danielle pointed out to me that, yes, the cup does infact look like it says “…to make squirrel happy.” Which I’ll totally take as well. Squirrels need to be happy too.
I enjoyed a number of relaxed mornings on the couch with my parents. My favorite time in the world. And this time could actually just…sit… and feel no need to be productive.
I also thoroughly enjoyed a number of beautiful and deliciously laid out breakfast bars to feed the house of company we had staying with us. Gah these are my favorite.
I made good use of the insane amount of muffins my mom made for the post wedding breakfast, and fell in love with locally made breakfast sausages. Basically I loved breakfast even more than I usually do. Didn’t know that was possible.
Since the bride can’t have gluten or dairy right now, I made a special gluten free cake for the bridal shower (to add to the already overflowing feast), using this recipe from Les. In all honesty, I think this was the best gluten free recipe I’ve ever made. The magic of beans strikes again!!
It brought me back to the days of betty crocker rainbow chip icing. And who didn’t have THAT as their all time favorite?
Since she couldn’t have dairy I replaced the buttercream frosting with lemon coconut whip cream. Goooooood choice.
But I wasn’t the only making mean progress in the kitchen. On our last morning my dad whipped up some gluten free waffles (again to cater the brides’ needs) which were innnnnnncredible. Seconds were had.
I got out for a couple relaxing morning walks along my road
And enjoyed even the littlest things, like coffee on the deck with my soul sister, and beautiful plates of fruitMy time at home. Relaxation, comfort, and good food. #family #home #relaxation #selfcare Click To Tweet
I didn’t touch the blog. Heck I hardly touched my computer. Like I mentioned before, the thought of returning to those things that are so a part of my habitual routine back here in Toronto felt all sorts of gross. Now that I’m back, I feel there’s been a bit of shift. I have some very weird-feeling changes of thought going on, actually. I’ve realized the areas where I am not happy – which are kind of new, surprising – and somewhat scary – revelations for me. For now though, I’m going to just let me them do their thing and see where they go, rather than make any drastic assumptions. I’m hoping to just keep this lingering sense of comfort with me, and hope that when it begins to slide, I may be able to fight against it with a little more edge.
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